What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you will do with your evenings, how you will spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything.

-Pedro Arrupe, SJ

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

runner's high.

kevin and i completed our first ever half-marathon this past weekend, in phoenix-tempe. i didn't really train, so i'm in pain still. and i didn't get the time i was hoping for in the back of my mind, but there will be other shots at that. but, it was the first time in as long as i can remember that i've been genuinely proud of myself, and that's worth a lot these days.

Friday, January 8, 2010

so this is the new year.

[i'm going to try to get better about blogging, as well as privately journaling]

admittedly, i usually subscribe to all the cheesyness and lack of geniune-ness surrounding new year's resolutions, and usually end up jotting down a list that i lose before february. out of sight, out of mind. but i usually am genuinely excited for a new year to begin, and i feel renewed just because american culture says i should.

i'm having a lot of trouble with 2010 so far. i've been dreading this semester for quite a while now. and i'm trying my best to stop thinking about it less as "the semester where kevin finds out where he'll move that will be away from me" and more as "the semester where kevin finds a job in a place that i'll join him in a year and we'll start building our life together." but it's easier said than done, as most things are.

so no resolutions this year, save for the challenge i'm giving myself to really create and maintain a sense of balance in my life, especially with all the changes coming up this spring and summer. to really start balancing work and school and fun and love, and to stop just talking about it.

i'm still figuring out just how i'll do this, but i loved an idea posted on another blog i read awhile back. the post talks about a book called Getting Things Done, by David Allen, and encourages individuals to make what's called a Grand To-Do List, with separate columns for each section of your life that requires action. i've been wanting to put a big list like this together ever since reading this, and now seems like a great time to start. i plan to have sections for coursework; my job; personal; household; and wedding. it seems like such a basic concept but i don't underestimate the power of lists in aiding to get things done :)

So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance)

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogs bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back

So this is the new year